so i cry even more

(October 15, 2016)

It is too strange

This is too sad

And I am too sick

You are too far

This is complicated

In the last message

I said,

Please do not say you miss me

Because I might say it back

And no answer

You laughed

I did not reply

Today

You say sorry

And I know why

So you say you miss me

And still feel sorry

For saying that

And it is still,

today

I say sorry too

And you do not know why

So I tell you it is because I say it back

I cry

You say don’t reply again

I cry even more

[When in the fact, my best boy friends do not know why i am still crying myself in my room, why never leave my room, why do not want to go somewhere maybe with them, and why do not want to tell them both why. I am sorry, my puyer(s) (this is our silly nicknames for each other), I just can not cry in front of you both by telling the truth. Thank you for always asking me if i am still ok or not, even until this secon.]